Anyway, Dr. Skipton called again yesterday and told us pretty much everything they could figure out from the aspiration they took on Tuesday. 1) its not an abscess. 2) The lump is a lymph node. 3) The remaining possibilities are either a bacterial infection or lymphoma. One more weird piece of information. When Sandy woke up limping on Sunday, the lump was small. Then the lump grew to nearly the size of a golf ball over the week, but today...its really small again. Dr. Skipton said that's probably a good sign because if it was a bacterial infection, then that behavior would show the ability of Sandy's body to fight off the disease. If it IS just an infection, the antibiotics that we started him on today should work. If not...well, like my dad says...we'll cross that bridge when we get to it (if we get to it.)
Related to that, I had an emotional breakdown yesterday. Well...I'm not sure if that really relevant, but it sure was ironic. It had something to do with...too much homework...unfair confiscation...Sandy being sick...Godspell production week...my own exceptations...untimely character tests...and all of those combined. Why am I giving you this little window into my hectic life??? I HAVE NO IDEA.
Somehow, I wish teenagers didn't have so many problems. Actually, my problem was that I was trusting in myself. Yesterday at church, Pastor Ray Ortland said..."its pointless to focus on ourselves! We're so discouraging!" That is soooo true. What is also true is that God is sooooo forgiving and he's given us a tool to battle the lies of the devil! Later in the evening, dad directed to that very tool, the Bible, and I found something I hadn't noticed before. I had a twisted view of God. Apparently, I was viewing God as too busy to answer my prayers. Dad told me to go through the New Testament and find places where God welcomes people to come to him.
Somehow, I wish teenagers didn't have so many problems. Actually, my problem was that I was trusting in myself. Yesterday at church, Pastor Ray Ortland said..."its pointless to focus on ourselves! We're so discouraging!" That is soooo true. What is also true is that God is sooooo forgiving and he's given us a tool to battle the lies of the devil! Later in the evening, dad directed to that very tool, the Bible, and I found something I hadn't noticed before. I had a twisted view of God. Apparently, I was viewing God as too busy to answer my prayers. Dad told me to go through the New Testament and find places where God welcomes people to come to him.
In Matthew 11: 28 says: "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
No wonder I had an emotional breakdown! I was trying to handle the entire burden myself!!! It's good to know that I'm God's child and that he is faithful even when I am faithless :)
~Anna
NO GOD, NO PEACE. KNOW GOD, KNOW PEACE.
NO GOD, NO PEACE. KNOW GOD, KNOW PEACE.
So true, Anna! It's so comforting to know that our Savior is ready to help us bear our burdens. Here is a quote from Charles Spurgeon that has helped me SO much with this concept. I still need to be reminded of this truth ALL the time...
ReplyDeleteYou are ‘laden’—yes, ‘heavy laden’ with sin, fear, care, remorse, fear of death; but if you come to him, he will unload you. He carried the crushing mass of our sin, that we might no longer carry it. He made himself the great Burden-bearer, that every heavy laden one might cease from bearing down under the enormous pressure.
—C.H. Spurgeon, Cheque Book of the Bank of Faith pg. 14
Wow Carrie, you are so encouraging, thx girl! <3
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